I started playing a PC game - Overwatch - while & because of a very bad life/situation and because of feeling super lonely. Not even trying to make friends, I anyway did… slowly and continually. We gamers find others that fit with us somehow.
Over the months, I had to move, lost some people in my family, broke a lot in life, wanted to end it all, but, hey, somehow, I managed to go through it - thanks to the people that became a part of my life as well, even if first "existing" for me only in the virtual world. Talking, sharing, getting to our passions - and with one particular person, I learned I shared a passion for (acoustic) music and music overall. Playing, talking, exchanging great songs to listen to as well in between, inspiring the other... we both were in a bad place of sorts, and depressive people at times as well, not by choice, still kind of are... we ended up meeting in (his home country) Sweden. We just had to, so close in personalities...
To add to that, in only a few days, we learned that we not only can sing together random songs we liked but also create new ones - as easily as breathing. I didn't have any real recording/music stuff gear with me. So - only him, me, his two guitars, our voices, and my phone (Voice memos on an iPhone, not even a regular mic ;-) ) served as our memories-making tools. And we recorded just so, on the go, what we created. Each song took only a few hours, sometimes minutes, to be created, and only a few rehearsals and... done.
I loved it, loved the songs we made and how we made it, the whole process. Even months later, I listened to our songs a lot - and later, back home, I decided I want them to exist, to be actually accessible. Me and Vii here in our &Tilly room spent tens of hours on cleaning the songs from the simple phone-on-the-table noise and polished the live recordings low-ish in quality so that it sounds... well, just listen, and let me know. I must say I am hugely proud of what I and Texan did in those few days - from zero to a whole... live... album. Not even knowing we are doing that, we did it as naturally as breathing.
The F-Side country is an album of longing, of aloneness disturbed by finding company, of two souls resonating together, and about all the Fuckups and Friendships and Final thoughts... Flipped to become sound and words and music. A whole country-inspired world hidden in a guitar and two voices.
#1 On The Kitchen Floor ==== Take me back to pieces Take me back in time Take me away, this is My standing in line Talk me through the story Talk me from that way Talk about your worry Making little waves Does it feel like running out of time Does it feel like wasting the last dime I would try something new Wishing you could hear more All along, write and do On the kitchen floor So take me back to pieces Take me back in time Take me back in time #2 Better With You ==== Tell me something, tell me something beautiful Tell me about smiling that won't turn into sorrows dull Talk about the weather if you have nothing else on mind Your words feel like feathers, letters sound like lullabies Cry with me, no one else would want to Only the goodbies I have to endure just like you I don't mind you crying, I don't mind to do that too Even if not perfect, my life is just better with you Hold me on this cold day, I could use your presence Hug me, I feel empty, and all the bad might lessen Tell me the truth, I don't seem to recall any You just might be right, and I might have wronged many Tell me something, tell me something meaningless Tell me about smiles that won't turn into something less Talk about the weather if you have nothing else to say With your words I feel better, I'm better with you today na na na, na na na na na na na na na na na na, na na na na na na na #3 Blame It On The Pigeons ==== If a car goes too fast Is life too short to last How do you know There's not a new life In the hospital With his wife If a bread falls on the floor With somebody at the door Why do you think There was intention Of disturbing you He didn't mention This unnecessary talking If you're not walking in his shoes How can you understand his blues If you must blame someone Blame it on the pigeons What if it is really you In the way of drivers too And the entering Shocked from the breadcrumbs Black and white Or a grey spectrum Is your blaming really helping? I mean, what good will it make, If you cannot change What's already happened? It may be hard to accept but sometimes, all you can do is Roll over and go on This unnecessary talking If you're not walking in his shoes How can you understand his blues If finding something to blame Blame it on the pigeons Well, blame it on the pigeons #4 Can You Hear The Rain ==== Is the rain talking To my other heart Is your heart walking To the rainy yard Can the rain be speaking A language that I know Can you make me hoping That we will stay just so Can you hear the rain fall Hmm hmhm hm hmmm Slowly tapping on my Windowsill Can you hear the rain fall Hmm hmhm hm hmmm It's not the last time That dark became so bright Move into the part-mine Corner wall, I might Coming here to warm me Sun will rise, so vast Well, I preferred the stormy Weather dealt to us Can you hear the rain fall Hmm hmhm hm hmmm Slowly tapping on my Windowsill Can you hear the rain fall Hmm hmhm hm hmmm Can you hear the rain fall Hmm hmhm hm hmmm Slowly tapping on my Windowsill Can you hear the rainbow Hmm hmhm hm hmmm Hmm hmhm hm hmmm Hmm hmhm hm hmmm #5 Five Circles Of Hell ==== The gates of hell slowly pulling me in, pulling me in Wish I could close these doors, without closing me within If I ever fall in the pit, I might deny my own name Bury me in that what was, and I will scream in pain I should have known better I shouldn't pick it as well I'll shed the should and shouldn'ts Passing through circles of hell At the Devil's crossroad I'll stop, try to ask for a deal If I only knew which road, I'd never know how'd this feel People say I went too far, too far at times Its killing me I might as well be dead, close to end at last I should have known better I shouldn't pick it as well I'll shed the should and shouldn'ts Passing through circles of hell The gates of hell slowly pulling me in, pulling me in At the end I'll enter on my own, making the devil my kin Making the devil my kin #6 The Day We Had The Moon With Us ==== Sun up, rising and shining And us, up and about Wandering And wondering Why is the moon going by On an afternoon, to fly And we can't help but think If this could be right The day being this bright A blue that's almost white Feeling blessed Oh, could we rest from this mess We could even be alright Under this light We're up, rising to shine And the moon in the blue sky We wonder If it's wondering If we are to wander back An afternoon of bricks and tracks We can't help but think If this could be right The day being this bright A blue that's almost white Feeling blessed Oh, could we rest from this mess We could even be alright Under this light We could even be alright Under this light Feeling blessed #7 Each Time ==== Each time I looked Each time I shook In expectations Of what this moment brings Each time We laughed Each time Got proud Knowing You're there close to my knees Each time And with each moment over Each phrase With a question on her Each me And every one of you Each road Each and every step or two Each time I looked Each time I knew No expectations Are what my world now needs Each time We laughed Each time More loud Knowing There is a limit to those deeds Each time And with each moment over Each phrase With a question on her Each me And every one of you Each road Each and every step or two Each time I wondered about each time Each time Each time #8 Half Step Down ==== Well I've spent most days, wondering where I would be, without you, keeping me here Those sad old country songs help me realize that nothing's, nothing's wrong So I'll keep on writing more, and maybe I'll get along with it all, with it all So I'll have to just keep going With my head held high, without knowing If I'll ever make it through If I'll ever make it through Well I've spent most nights looking up the bright stars, asking them if you're still full of light Those shivers of cold reminding me I'm still alive, and getting more and more old I'll keep humming those tunes, and maybe I'll get it right once those nice shades of blue blues Those nice shades of blue blues So I'll have to just keep going With my head held high, without knowing If I'll ever make it through, make it through If I'll ever make it through Well I'll spent most dawns opening my eyes, and my mind bending to last Dusks changing to dust, and memories engraving grey to the long long long long days past Guitar on my back, I'll make half a step down, and maybe I'll get back on track And maybe I'll get back on track And maybe I'll get back on track So I'll have to just keep going, keep going With my head held high, without knowing If I'll ever make it through If I'll ever make it through Those nice shades of blue blues Those nice shades of blue blues #9 The Way Back ==== Make your way back Back to me Take my empty hand I wish you would Take my empty hand Take my hand back Make your way back Back to me I wish you could Come home Again And I wish we would Do that Again Make your payback Play to be Take that what is mine I wish you would Take that what is mine Take my playback Play, play it back Back to me I wish you could Come home Again And I wish we would Do that Again I wish you could Come home Again And I wish we would Do that Again Make your way back Back to me Take my empty hand I wish you would Take my empty hand Take my hand back Make your way back Back to me Back to me Back to me #10 Catch Up With Ketchup ==== Hej Like Ash, let's check 'em And catch them all Hej Catch up with ketchup On any dough Hej Put on some red and Have some fun Hej Catch up with ketchup And get me some You know it And I know it And we know it all Let's do it Let's cool it With ketchup on You want it And I want it And we want it all Let's do it Let's cool it With ketchup on Hej Come on, we met let's Have some fries Hej Catch up with ketchup On all the tries Hej Try out a burger And play my pun Hej Catch up with ketchup With every bun You know it And I know it And we know it all Let's do it Let's cool it With ketchup on You want it And I want it And we want it all Let's do it Let's cool it With ketchup on Hej Wait up, I'm thinking, A pizza place Hej Catch up with ketchup If on your face Hej What about hot-dogs Just on the go Hej Catch up with ketchup You love the most You know it And I know it And we know it all Let's do it Let's cool it With ketchup on You want it And I want it And we want it all Let's do it Let's cool it With ketchup on You know it And I know it And we know it all Let's do it Let's cool it With ketchup on You want it And I want it And we want it all Let's do it Let's cool it With ketchup on
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